Monday, February 17, 2014

Ashley

What more can be said that hasn't already been told? Nothing...

An arrest has been made (her roommate, who can be seen in a few photos up on Ashley's twitter...), and the news said she "Died of violence" so I can only assume...

It breaks my heart.

I'm generally a nice person, but it takes a lot for someone to really get on my good side, and she was on my good side...

She was one of the few other girls on cb who would come into my room and actually just hang out.

And she was one of the only girls who's room I felt comfortable in while she herself was broadcasting, sometimes you can just tell that the girl broadcasting doesn't want another model in her room, and Ashley wasn't like that... She was so happy to see me...

Most of you know i'm from Ohio, as Ashley is. We had talked about meeting up sometime, maybe get on cam and maybe not, we hadn't really decided. Wish we would have.

She was the only female to have my kik, i enjoyed the booty pics she often sent me.

I miss her already, she was so fucking young, just a baby... she wasn't sick, she wasn't old, she wasn't dying... Her life was stolen selfishly from her. It isn't fair.

What sucks is that she was a better friend to me than some friends I've had for decades... I wish I would have met her, it sucks that I only have internet and texting memories of her.

Mourning has ruined my sleep schedule, which was already ruined but now it's worse.
Fell asleep at 10pm and woke up at midnight, haven't been able to fall asleep since then and it is now 2:30am... And i'm just sitting here, bawling every 5 or 10 minutes.

She did not deserve to die the way she did...

She was a Laveyan Satanist, which is one of several regions identifying as satanic. Followers are atheists who stress dependence on ones SELF rather than the reliance of any outside power.
To her, Satan was a myth, just like God and other deities.

So don't pray for her, she wouldn't have wanted that.

Just live the best life you can, learn to rely on yourself, focus on your individualism and self determination!

Above all, remember her as she was, always.

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